Moving

Ah!! I leave in less than 24 hours! I am so excited! I honestly can't wait! I've had most of my clothes packed for a week and have just been living out of my suitcase!

It feels nice to be all packed though. I only have a few things that I need to squeeze in somewhere I'm proud of myself though, I only have 3 boxes, 2 garbage bags, and 1 suitcase. I'm not a light packer so for me that's pretty good! :)

It's kind of a bitter sweet thing though. This has been a really fun summer. I've had a lot of fun with Kristi. We shared a room all summer, and went to the branch together. And it's been a lot of fun, especially the late night talks. Ha ha we only got yelled at for those a handful of times! - they had a tendency to get kind of loud!

My computer is having problems, so I think I'm just going to turn it off and go to bed, before I break it!

Music!

I decided to add music to my blog yesterday. You can probably tell from my blog title that I LOVE music! I decided to only add songs that mean something to me, so I decided I would post the lyrics to the songs and why I picked them! So the 5 posts below this are all of the songs! :)

Stronger Woman

This is one of my most favorite songs of all times!

I guess you could say I'm one of those girls
That's always been with one of those guys
You know the type
Like right now he sleeps while I write
But it's better than crying
I'm warn out from trying
From loving a man who always makes it clear
I'm not welcome here
Just when he's hungry or frisky
Or needs something clean
You know what I mean
But not tonight
Cause come the morning light, oh

I'm gonna love myself more than anyone else
Believe in me, even if someone can't see
A stronger woman in me

I'm gonna be my own best friend
Stick with me till the end
Won't lose myself again, never, no
Cause there's a stronger woman
A stronger woman in me

Light bulbs buzz
I get up, head to my drawer
I wish there was more I could say
Another fairy tale fades to grey
I've lived on hope
Just like a child
Walking that mile,
Faking that smile
All the while
Wishing my heart had wings

Well from now on I'm gonna be
The kind of woman I want my daughter to be

I'm gonna love myself more than anyone else
Believe in me, even if someone can't see
There's a stronger woman in me
I'm gonna be my own best friend
Stick with me to the end
Won't lose myself again,never, no
Cause there's a stronger woman,
A stronger woman

This is me packing up my bags
And this is me headed for the door
And this is me,
The best you ever had

I'm gonna love myself more than anyone else
Believe in me, even if someone can't see
A stronger woman in me
I'm gonna be my own best friend
Stick with me till the end
Won't lose myself again never, no
Cause there's a stronger woman,
Stronger woman
There's a stronger woman in me
Yeah


I think sometimes it is really important to "Love yourself more than anyone else!" You always need to believe in yourself, no matter what other people can see, because other people see the outside, but you see the inside. I love this song because it reminds me that a woman is just as strong as a man. And that a woman doesn't need a man in her life!

Someone's Watching Over Me

I looked into this song for pageant, but they didn't have a minus one track, and I didn't want to buy the book. So I didn't do it, but I still really love the song! It's by Hillary Duff and in the movie Raise Your Voice (awesome movie!) It's a really cute song and it reminds me of my Grandma. :)

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark
I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe

That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong

When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

I really believe that there is always someone watching over you, making sure that things are okay. They help you to make decisions, and whisper things that you need to hear. Bad things might happen, and life might get hard, but there's always someone out there watching over you.

Fences

For the longest time I only liked this song because of one line in it: "Don't look up, just let them think there's no place else you'd rather be!" But then as I got to know the rest of the song, I realized that the whole thing is really good!

I'm sitting in a room made up of only big white walls
And in the halls there are people looking through
The window in the door
They know exactly what we're here for

Don't look up just let them think
There's no place else you'd rather be
(This is one of my favorite lines, because I've been in countless situations like this, where I'm so uncomfortable, and feel so awkward or out of place, but there's no way I'm going to let anyone know that. I act to make them believe that there's no place else I'd rather be!_


You're always on display
For everyone to watch and learn from
Don't you know by now? You can't turn back
Because this road is all you'll ever have

And it's obvious that you're dying, dying
Just living proof that the camera's lying
And oh, oh, open wide, cause this is your night
So smile, cause you'll go out in style
You'll go out in style

If you let me, I could
I'd show you how to build your fences
Set restrictions separate from the world
(I love to be different! And to be separate from the world!)
The constant battle that you hate to fight
Just blame the limelight

Don't look up, just let them think
There's no place else you'd rather be
And now you can't turn back
Because this road is all you'll ever have

And it's obvious that you're dying, dying
Just living proof that the camera's lying
And oh, oh, open wide, cause this is your night,
So smile

Yeah, yeah you're asking for it
With every breath that you breathe in
Just breathe it in

Yeah, yeah well you're just a mess
You do all this big talkin'
So now let's see you walkin'
I said let's see you walkin'

I love this song because it's such a strong anthem to being yourself, and not letting the world influence the individual.

This is Me

I was looking for a song to sing in a talent show and I came across this one. The talent show got cancelled and I never got to sing it, but it's an amazing song!

I think the main reason I like this song is because it's a reminder to be the person that you are. A reminder to not change for anyone, because there is someone who doesn't want you to change anything. It's a reminder to be comfortable with who you are, and not to let other people influence you.

Show your dreams to the world, and become the person you want to be.


I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world,
What I've got to say

But I have this dream,
Bright inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time,
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now.
Gonna let the light,
Shine on me

Now I've found who I am,
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This me

Do you know what it's like?
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life,
When you're a shining star

Even though it seems,
Like you're too far away
I have to believe, in myself
It's the only way

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now.
Gonna let the light,
Shine on me

Now I've found who I am,
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you,
I got to find you

You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I got to find you

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now.
Gonna let the light,
Shine on me

Now I've found who I am,
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This me

This song makes me think of going off to college because I know that BYU-I is exactly where I'm supposed to be. I know my dorm, is the dorm that I'm supposed to be staying in. I don't know why yet, but I'm so excited to find out!

Through the last two years of high school I've found out who I am. I know who I am, and I know what I want to do with my life. And once you figure that out there really is no way to hold it in. It's an incredible feeling!

Defying Gravity

This one is really long! But it has a really good message! It follows the conversation of two friends as they choose to go separate ways in their life. I chose to go a separate way than my friends a few years back, and I can only wish it would have gone as smooth as this!

Something has changed within me,
Something is not the same.
(I really like how the beginning starts out, "Something has changed within me, something is not the same." We've all had that feeling, at least once in our life, that changes our course. It makes us rethink our decisions and suddenly we can't do the thing we were going to do before).
I'm through with playing
By the rules of someone else's game.
(In my pageant speech I quoted the line, "I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game." I think it's really important to make up your own rules to life. Use other people's rules a guidelines, and certainly learn from other people's mistakes. But don't miss out on something, because someone told you it wasn't possible).
Too late for second guessing.
Too late to go back to sleep.
It's time to trust my instincts,
Close my eyes,
And leap!
(The most memorable moments in life come out of taking a leap of faith into something new! Sometimes you just have to trust your instincts, close your eyes, and leap!)

It's time to try defying gravity.
I think I'll try defying gravity,
And you can't pull me down!

Can't I make you understand,
You're having delusions of grandeur?
(Dictionary.com defines delusions of grandeur as "A delusion that you are much greater and more powerful and influential than you really are." But you never know who is watching you, and who you are influencing. So go ahead and try for big things! What's the worst that could happen?)

I'm through accepting limits
'Cuz someone says they're so!
(This goes back to the playing by the rules of someone else's game. Find your own limits - the only way to do that is to try!)
Somethings I cannot change,
But till I try I'll never know!
(I think we would all be surprised to see how much we could change if we tried).
Too long I've been afraid of,
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love -
It comes at much to high a cost!
(How often are we the last to know when something is over? It might take a while to see but when you look back you can usually see that it wasn't worth it. That it came at "much to high a cost.")

I'd sooner buy defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
And you can't pull me down!

Glinda, come with me!
Think of what we could do - together!
Unlimited, together we're unlimited
Together we'll be the greatest team there's ever been.
Glinda, dreams the way we planned them.
If we work in tandem.
There's no fight we cannot win.

Just you and I defying gravity
With you and I defying gravity
They'll never bring us down.

Well, are you coming?
I hope you're happy,
Now that you're choosing this.
I hope it brings you bliss.
I really hope you get it -
And you don't live to regret it!

I hope you're happy in the end,
I hope you're happy, my friend!
(Wouldn't it be nice if when friends went their own separate ways, we could respect the other's decision and wish them the best of luck in what they choose?)

So if you care to find me
Look to the western sky.
As someone told me lately:
"Everyone deserves the chance to fly!"
And if I'm flying solo,
At least I'm flying free.
(What an optimistic point of view! Sometimes the choices you make in your life will leave you alone, but at least you'll be free!)
To those who'd ground me,
Take a message back from me:

Tell them how I am defying gravity
I'm flying high, defying gravity

And soon I'll match them in renown.
And nobody in all of Oz
No wizard that there is or was
Is ever gonna bring me down!

There is always going to be at least one person who will tell you it can't be done. Go out of your way to prove them wrong!

Moving!

I decided I needed to make a list of things I need to pack, and things I need to buy once I get there. That way I won't forget anything! I went down to Oregon for a parade last weekend, and I forgot my crown!! Haha

Things to pack:
Alternative down blanket
Colorful ball pillows
Big, fluffy pillow
Towels
i-Home
school supplies
Spray bottles - for salt water, and water
Gel
Face wash
Bedding
Clothes
Big warm coat!
Make-up (sort through it!)


Things to buy before we leave:
Thermals!!


Things to buy:
Face towel, and washcloths
Kitchen supplies - pans, plates, utensils, toaster, cheese grater etc
Iron
Flashlight/batteries
Toiletries - soap, shampoo, conditioner, feminine products (a.k.a. tampons! - happy kristi?), hairspray, razors
Cleaning supplies
big water bottle
Laundry soap
TP
Hangers
Microsoft stuff for computer!
Mirror for bedroom?


Things to buy at Costco: (The closest Costco is in Utah!)
Clam chowder!
Medicine! (PMS trio, and benadryl)

Things to buy on eBay:
Toaster oven!

Personal Progress

Faith
1 - done!
2 - done!
3 - done!
4 - done!
5 - done!
6 - done!
P - Sharing my testimony through song

Divine Nature
1 - done!
2 - done!
3 - done!
4 - done!
5 - done!
6 - done!
P - Making my own clothes

Individual Worth
1 - done!
2 - done!
3 - working
4 - done!
5 - done!
6 - done!
P - Strawberry Festival Pageant and parades

Knowledge
1 - done!
2 - done!
3 - done!
4 - done!
5 - done!
6 - done!
P - Applying for school and scholarships

Choice and Accountability
1 - done!
2 - done!
3 - done!
4 - done!
5 - done!
6 - done!
P - Planning and putting on DUI assembly

Good Works
1 - working
2 - done!
3 - done!
4 - done!
5 - done!
6 - done!
P - Pretty in Pink

Integrity
1 - done!
2 - done!
3 - done!
4 - done!
5 - done!
6 - done!
P - ASB

Working on:

• Individual Worth 3 - Notice and acknowledge worthwhile qualities (2 weeks)
• Good Works 1 - Record and acknowledge quiet acts of service (2 weeks)