Home for Christmas

It feels so good to be home for Christmas! I made it through finals!...barely but I made it none the less! =D
The last Sunday a few of our FHE members decided that we should have a FHE Christmas dinner. So we did. We had lasagna and enchiladas. Frozen peas, with string beans. A bowl of frozen fruit, and a can of peaches. Dinner like true college students! Most everyone came and it was really fun! Then we acted out the Nativity. It was a disaster but made for a great laugh! I’ll have to post it on here!
None of that beats being home though! Although getting here was an adventure! I had a flight out of I.F. at 1:00 it landed in Salt Lake at 2:00 and I had a flight to Seattle that left at 2:30. Well of course it snowed! And my flight from I.F. was delayed almost 2 hours! Needless to say I missed my second flight! Anyways a girl from my home ward was on my same flight to Salt Lake so we just sat and talked in the I.F. airport. When we finally got to board the plane I was so excited that I left my phone in the airport. When I got on the plane and went to turn it off I couldn’t find it anywhere! I was freaking out and then to make things worse the guy sitting next to me wouldn’t stop talking! I finally just went to sleep so I didn’t have to try to make small talk! So we got to Salt Lake and I called my mom from my friend’s phone and she called and got it suspended. Then I called another girl from my stake that was in the I.F. airport, and she said that they were on the plane but weren’t taking off because it was snowing too hard. But she called me back after a little while and said that they had let them off the plane and she went and found it! I was so excited! So we met up in Seattle and I got it back that night! But anyways so I got to Salt Lake and had to go switch my flight so I could get back to Seattle since I missed my first flight to Seattle! Then me and my friend went to get Cinnabons and we were eating them and we found hair in both of them! Gross!
But I got home in the end! It has been so nice to finally sleep again! Ever since white glove last Saturday I haven’t been able to go to sleep before 3. I got home Friday night and started cleaning around 6:30 I cleaned till 4:30 when I decided to sleep for a few hours! Then I woke up at 6:30 got ready finished cleaning and went to my voice recital! The rest of the week I just couldn’t sleep before 3 and of course that was the week of finals! Haha! So sleeping in everyday has been nice!
I thought I was going to make it through my whole first semester without any snow, and I was SO excited! But alas at about 10:00 Friday night it started snowing, like real snow! It had snowed a few times before that but not enough to really do anything. But it snowed all night! At about 4:30 in the morning I walked outside to go to my neighbors and it was snowing so hard and the wind was blowing so hard that it was just all white and you couldn’t really see anything! (This does not have me excited for Winter Semester!) By the time I woke up in the morning there was 4 to 6 inches! Haha so I missed missing the snow by less than 24 hours! What a bummer! And then…I come home to snow in Seattle! I just can’t seem to get away from this stuff! At least it’s a bit warmer here! The other night it was 9 degreed! Not fun!
Anyways, I’m excited for Christmas! Now that I’m home and there’s Christmas decorations up and everything it’s finally starting to feel like Christmas! I’m excited for Kristi to come home and then all 6 of us will be here and it will feel like Christmas even more!

Center for Change

The past two days the Center for Change (an eating disorder clinic in Orem, Utah) and the BYU-I counseling center, put on eating disorder seminars. There were 7 in total, I could only go to 4 of them though. I was able to go to one yesterday, it was called "Preventing Eating Disorders: What You Can Know Now That I Didn't Know Then" It was my Becky Mann who currently works as a nurse for the Center of Change. She struggled with an eating disorder starting at the age of 12, but through therapy was able to overcome it. She talked about ways to "eating disorder proof" your home. It was really good.

My favorite one was the one this morning. It was by Lynette Taylor and was called, "The Healing Power of Music in Making Changes from Addictive Behaviors with Food, Diets and Eating Disorders." Lynette is the music therapist at a Center for Change, which is exactly what I want to do! She went here (well Ricks College), and then transferred to Utah State which is exactly what I am planning on doing! She talked about different types of things she does during a therapy session, and it all seems so exciting to me! She did a demonstration with a crystal bowl. When you run a mallet type thing along the outside of the bowl it makes a noise (like running your finger around the edge of a crystal glass), only this was a low noise. You can feel the sound reverberate all up and down your body. When a part of your body is out of alignment the sound will migrate to that place and stay there. For instance if you are having anxiety problems the sound will settle in your stomach, emotional problems you heart, mental problems (like studying too much!) your head. It was so weird to feel it! I felt it in my legs and arms....not to sure what that means yet! But I plan on finding out!

The next when was by Becky Mann again, it was called, "A Personal Journey of Faith, Hope and Recovery From the Ravages of an Eating Disorder." She talked about her personal struggle with an eating disorder, where it came from, how it affected her life, and how she got help. The last one was by Michael Berrett, Gwena Couliard, and Randy Hardman, and they talked about positive self-esteem and stuff like that.

There was about a 30-minute break between two of the seminars so I went and talked to Lynette, the music-therapist. And we were talking and she was telling me how the music-therapy program at Utah State (one of 4 on the West coast) is kind of hard to get into, but if it's something you're really passionate about and really dedicated to, they won't deny you. She was really excited for me! She had gotten e-mail addresses of people who wanted to know more about music therapy and she had me star my name and she was like "Keep in touch! When you get into the program and you need help just email me!" And then she told me that when I was ready I could go down and intern for her!! Ahh! I'm so excited! It was a really good day! And I learned a lot! Now I can't wait to transfer and get to learn more about it! :)

What do I do with my life??

Ah! What do I want to do with my life?

Part of me wants to go into music therapy so I can work in an eating disorder clinic because that is something I am really passionate about. But another part of me wants to major in international studies, I love learning about countries in the middle east. When I applied to college I didn't know exactly what I wanted to do (I still don't!) so I didn't bother looking into specific programs. But now that I'm starting to all I can say is.....CRAP!

Haha! So BYU-I only has a 2-year music therapy program and then you have to transfer somewhere else. And they only have an international studies minor - no major. And nothing else sounds interesting. So pretty much I have to transfer! But I don't know where to!

BYU-I re-did their general classes and made a set of classes called foundations. Well I just found out that those credits don't transfer to most colleges unless you have your associates degree. I don't want to just take the boring classes to get my associates degree though! I want to take the boring classes that I have to take mixed with the fun classes that I have to take! But I need to get somewhere that I can do the major I want to do. Ah!! I don't know what to do with my life!! Someone plan it all out for me please! :)

The Hair!

So when we were in Provo dropping Kristi off at school I had my cousin cut my hair, I was bored with it so...I cut it all off! Then the other day me and my neighbors were bored so we decided to dye it! We added some black! And I love it! :) Ha ha so here are some pics!



This is my lovely roommate Kristen. I love her! And can't wait to room together next semester too!

College is fun!

College is definitely way better than high school! Everyone always says that high school is the best part of your life, but no way! It doesn't even come close to college!

Last night I was having issues with my roommates, and ran next door. I didn't really know the girls, but now we're really close! We are going to room together next semester, and I think I might go on a Meso America study abroad trip with them during the summer.

Right now I'm letting them dye my hair!! We'll see how it turns out! I'll have to post pictures...! One of the girls Kristy, lives in the same cul-de-sac as my Aunt Denise and Uncle Randy! Which is way exciting! I think Summer is up here with her husband, but I'm not sure. Grandpa thought they were, but Kristy didn't, so who knows!! Haha

Carol's surgery went well, they got the tumor out and it wasn't cancerous so that's really good! That takes a lot of stress out of life! I can't wait till next summer to go back and help with the parade! I get to announce in two years - I can't wait!! This summer, I'll be in the parade in a car, so I can't announce but that'll still be really fun!

Anyways, I'm kinda at a party right now. One of our friends is turning 19, but he's not here yet so we're just kinda sitting around!!

Anyways!

Pageant Platform Speech

This is my platform speech for the pageant I was in. My platform was Eating Disorder Awareness.


Eating Disorders: “I’m More Than Just a Number”

Numbers define nearly everything in our society. We use numbers to define our shoe size, our clothing size, our weight, and our age. We have even reached the point where we label ourselves with a number, and use that number to define our self-worth. We sometimes take drastic measures as we try to lower our number in an effort to raise our self-worth.

Every year 5 million Americans are diagnosed with a suppressive eating disorder. With such a high rate eating disorders have now become more common than Alzheimer’s disease and are the number one killer of all mental illnesses.

While eating disorders have many causes, our media plays a large role in nearly all cases. The majority of eating disorders begin between the ages of 15 and 19, the most influential years of a teenager’s life.

In 1995 the beautiful country of Fiji was introduced to western television. Before its arrival women believed that fat was beautiful. Thin women were seen as weak, and so women tried for robust, well-muscled bodies. But after 38 months of watching western television 74% of Fiji’s teenage girls believed that they were too big, and 15% had resorted to vomiting in an effort to look like the women on their new favorite shows.

At the Montevideo fashion week in June of 2006, Luisell Ramos, a Uruguayan model passed away at the age of 22. She died of heart failure as a result of her eating disorder – anorexia nervosa. Her death forced fashion officials around the world to take a look at their models and the influence they have on their audiences.

Officials of the Madrid fashion week decided to take a stand against eating disorders by banning models that were “too skinny” meaning models with a Body Mass Index rate under 18 (18 being the lowest in the healthy range on the BMI scale). They received criticism and support as they turned away nearly 30% of their models.

Our media has warped our perception to think that we need to be a certain number – a small number. But the models in our media are thinner than 98% of American women. The average American woman is 5’4” and weighs 140 pounds, while the average American model is 5’11” and weighs 117 pounds.


I urge teenagers everywhere to be comfortable with your body, and not to look to the media for an example of who you should be. Be strong in being who you are and accept these words of Stephen Schwartz as your anthem when he wrote:

I’m through with playing by the rules of someone else’s game

Play your own game, make your own rules, and most importantly; don’t let numbers define who you are, because you’re more than just a number.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FIeDG2ienNs

First Day of Class!

Today was my first day of college classes! I loved every single one of them! I have to say that my music classes are my favorite! All of my professors are really cool, one of them is crazy! Seriously.

I'm taking 15 credits (6 classes). They are Music and Humanities 101. Vocal instruction 104. Mathematics for the Real World 108. American Foundations 101. Science Foundations 101. and Book of Mormon 121. I had all of them but the last two today. So that leaves me a lot of time to study tomorrow! :)

My roommates are super cool! And we all get along really well! I have four roommates, and we have a full kitchen - which is super exciting! Me and my actual roommate are a lot alike- in a good way!

So over all my college experience is going good. We'll see what I think in a few weeks though! :)

Moving

Ah!! I leave in less than 24 hours! I am so excited! I honestly can't wait! I've had most of my clothes packed for a week and have just been living out of my suitcase!

It feels nice to be all packed though. I only have a few things that I need to squeeze in somewhere I'm proud of myself though, I only have 3 boxes, 2 garbage bags, and 1 suitcase. I'm not a light packer so for me that's pretty good! :)

It's kind of a bitter sweet thing though. This has been a really fun summer. I've had a lot of fun with Kristi. We shared a room all summer, and went to the branch together. And it's been a lot of fun, especially the late night talks. Ha ha we only got yelled at for those a handful of times! - they had a tendency to get kind of loud!

My computer is having problems, so I think I'm just going to turn it off and go to bed, before I break it!

Music!

I decided to add music to my blog yesterday. You can probably tell from my blog title that I LOVE music! I decided to only add songs that mean something to me, so I decided I would post the lyrics to the songs and why I picked them! So the 5 posts below this are all of the songs! :)

Stronger Woman

This is one of my most favorite songs of all times!

I guess you could say I'm one of those girls
That's always been with one of those guys
You know the type
Like right now he sleeps while I write
But it's better than crying
I'm warn out from trying
From loving a man who always makes it clear
I'm not welcome here
Just when he's hungry or frisky
Or needs something clean
You know what I mean
But not tonight
Cause come the morning light, oh

I'm gonna love myself more than anyone else
Believe in me, even if someone can't see
A stronger woman in me

I'm gonna be my own best friend
Stick with me till the end
Won't lose myself again, never, no
Cause there's a stronger woman
A stronger woman in me

Light bulbs buzz
I get up, head to my drawer
I wish there was more I could say
Another fairy tale fades to grey
I've lived on hope
Just like a child
Walking that mile,
Faking that smile
All the while
Wishing my heart had wings

Well from now on I'm gonna be
The kind of woman I want my daughter to be

I'm gonna love myself more than anyone else
Believe in me, even if someone can't see
There's a stronger woman in me
I'm gonna be my own best friend
Stick with me to the end
Won't lose myself again,never, no
Cause there's a stronger woman,
A stronger woman

This is me packing up my bags
And this is me headed for the door
And this is me,
The best you ever had

I'm gonna love myself more than anyone else
Believe in me, even if someone can't see
A stronger woman in me
I'm gonna be my own best friend
Stick with me till the end
Won't lose myself again never, no
Cause there's a stronger woman,
Stronger woman
There's a stronger woman in me
Yeah


I think sometimes it is really important to "Love yourself more than anyone else!" You always need to believe in yourself, no matter what other people can see, because other people see the outside, but you see the inside. I love this song because it reminds me that a woman is just as strong as a man. And that a woman doesn't need a man in her life!

Someone's Watching Over Me

I looked into this song for pageant, but they didn't have a minus one track, and I didn't want to buy the book. So I didn't do it, but I still really love the song! It's by Hillary Duff and in the movie Raise Your Voice (awesome movie!) It's a really cute song and it reminds me of my Grandma. :)

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark
I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe

That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong

When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

I really believe that there is always someone watching over you, making sure that things are okay. They help you to make decisions, and whisper things that you need to hear. Bad things might happen, and life might get hard, but there's always someone out there watching over you.

Fences

For the longest time I only liked this song because of one line in it: "Don't look up, just let them think there's no place else you'd rather be!" But then as I got to know the rest of the song, I realized that the whole thing is really good!

I'm sitting in a room made up of only big white walls
And in the halls there are people looking through
The window in the door
They know exactly what we're here for

Don't look up just let them think
There's no place else you'd rather be
(This is one of my favorite lines, because I've been in countless situations like this, where I'm so uncomfortable, and feel so awkward or out of place, but there's no way I'm going to let anyone know that. I act to make them believe that there's no place else I'd rather be!_


You're always on display
For everyone to watch and learn from
Don't you know by now? You can't turn back
Because this road is all you'll ever have

And it's obvious that you're dying, dying
Just living proof that the camera's lying
And oh, oh, open wide, cause this is your night
So smile, cause you'll go out in style
You'll go out in style

If you let me, I could
I'd show you how to build your fences
Set restrictions separate from the world
(I love to be different! And to be separate from the world!)
The constant battle that you hate to fight
Just blame the limelight

Don't look up, just let them think
There's no place else you'd rather be
And now you can't turn back
Because this road is all you'll ever have

And it's obvious that you're dying, dying
Just living proof that the camera's lying
And oh, oh, open wide, cause this is your night,
So smile

Yeah, yeah you're asking for it
With every breath that you breathe in
Just breathe it in

Yeah, yeah well you're just a mess
You do all this big talkin'
So now let's see you walkin'
I said let's see you walkin'

I love this song because it's such a strong anthem to being yourself, and not letting the world influence the individual.

This is Me

I was looking for a song to sing in a talent show and I came across this one. The talent show got cancelled and I never got to sing it, but it's an amazing song!

I think the main reason I like this song is because it's a reminder to be the person that you are. A reminder to not change for anyone, because there is someone who doesn't want you to change anything. It's a reminder to be comfortable with who you are, and not to let other people influence you.

Show your dreams to the world, and become the person you want to be.


I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world,
What I've got to say

But I have this dream,
Bright inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time,
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now.
Gonna let the light,
Shine on me

Now I've found who I am,
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This me

Do you know what it's like?
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life,
When you're a shining star

Even though it seems,
Like you're too far away
I have to believe, in myself
It's the only way

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now.
Gonna let the light,
Shine on me

Now I've found who I am,
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you,
I got to find you

You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I got to find you

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now.
Gonna let the light,
Shine on me

Now I've found who I am,
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This me

This song makes me think of going off to college because I know that BYU-I is exactly where I'm supposed to be. I know my dorm, is the dorm that I'm supposed to be staying in. I don't know why yet, but I'm so excited to find out!

Through the last two years of high school I've found out who I am. I know who I am, and I know what I want to do with my life. And once you figure that out there really is no way to hold it in. It's an incredible feeling!

Defying Gravity

This one is really long! But it has a really good message! It follows the conversation of two friends as they choose to go separate ways in their life. I chose to go a separate way than my friends a few years back, and I can only wish it would have gone as smooth as this!

Something has changed within me,
Something is not the same.
(I really like how the beginning starts out, "Something has changed within me, something is not the same." We've all had that feeling, at least once in our life, that changes our course. It makes us rethink our decisions and suddenly we can't do the thing we were going to do before).
I'm through with playing
By the rules of someone else's game.
(In my pageant speech I quoted the line, "I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game." I think it's really important to make up your own rules to life. Use other people's rules a guidelines, and certainly learn from other people's mistakes. But don't miss out on something, because someone told you it wasn't possible).
Too late for second guessing.
Too late to go back to sleep.
It's time to trust my instincts,
Close my eyes,
And leap!
(The most memorable moments in life come out of taking a leap of faith into something new! Sometimes you just have to trust your instincts, close your eyes, and leap!)

It's time to try defying gravity.
I think I'll try defying gravity,
And you can't pull me down!

Can't I make you understand,
You're having delusions of grandeur?
(Dictionary.com defines delusions of grandeur as "A delusion that you are much greater and more powerful and influential than you really are." But you never know who is watching you, and who you are influencing. So go ahead and try for big things! What's the worst that could happen?)

I'm through accepting limits
'Cuz someone says they're so!
(This goes back to the playing by the rules of someone else's game. Find your own limits - the only way to do that is to try!)
Somethings I cannot change,
But till I try I'll never know!
(I think we would all be surprised to see how much we could change if we tried).
Too long I've been afraid of,
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love -
It comes at much to high a cost!
(How often are we the last to know when something is over? It might take a while to see but when you look back you can usually see that it wasn't worth it. That it came at "much to high a cost.")

I'd sooner buy defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
And you can't pull me down!

Glinda, come with me!
Think of what we could do - together!
Unlimited, together we're unlimited
Together we'll be the greatest team there's ever been.
Glinda, dreams the way we planned them.
If we work in tandem.
There's no fight we cannot win.

Just you and I defying gravity
With you and I defying gravity
They'll never bring us down.

Well, are you coming?
I hope you're happy,
Now that you're choosing this.
I hope it brings you bliss.
I really hope you get it -
And you don't live to regret it!

I hope you're happy in the end,
I hope you're happy, my friend!
(Wouldn't it be nice if when friends went their own separate ways, we could respect the other's decision and wish them the best of luck in what they choose?)

So if you care to find me
Look to the western sky.
As someone told me lately:
"Everyone deserves the chance to fly!"
And if I'm flying solo,
At least I'm flying free.
(What an optimistic point of view! Sometimes the choices you make in your life will leave you alone, but at least you'll be free!)
To those who'd ground me,
Take a message back from me:

Tell them how I am defying gravity
I'm flying high, defying gravity

And soon I'll match them in renown.
And nobody in all of Oz
No wizard that there is or was
Is ever gonna bring me down!

There is always going to be at least one person who will tell you it can't be done. Go out of your way to prove them wrong!

Moving!

I decided I needed to make a list of things I need to pack, and things I need to buy once I get there. That way I won't forget anything! I went down to Oregon for a parade last weekend, and I forgot my crown!! Haha

Things to pack:
Alternative down blanket
Colorful ball pillows
Big, fluffy pillow
Towels
i-Home
school supplies
Spray bottles - for salt water, and water
Gel
Face wash
Bedding
Clothes
Big warm coat!
Make-up (sort through it!)


Things to buy before we leave:
Thermals!!


Things to buy:
Face towel, and washcloths
Kitchen supplies - pans, plates, utensils, toaster, cheese grater etc
Iron
Flashlight/batteries
Toiletries - soap, shampoo, conditioner, feminine products (a.k.a. tampons! - happy kristi?), hairspray, razors
Cleaning supplies
big water bottle
Laundry soap
TP
Hangers
Microsoft stuff for computer!
Mirror for bedroom?


Things to buy at Costco: (The closest Costco is in Utah!)
Clam chowder!
Medicine! (PMS trio, and benadryl)

Things to buy on eBay:
Toaster oven!

Personal Progress

Faith
1 - done!
2 - done!
3 - done!
4 - done!
5 - done!
6 - done!
P - Sharing my testimony through song

Divine Nature
1 - done!
2 - done!
3 - done!
4 - done!
5 - done!
6 - done!
P - Making my own clothes

Individual Worth
1 - done!
2 - done!
3 - working
4 - done!
5 - done!
6 - done!
P - Strawberry Festival Pageant and parades

Knowledge
1 - done!
2 - done!
3 - done!
4 - done!
5 - done!
6 - done!
P - Applying for school and scholarships

Choice and Accountability
1 - done!
2 - done!
3 - done!
4 - done!
5 - done!
6 - done!
P - Planning and putting on DUI assembly

Good Works
1 - working
2 - done!
3 - done!
4 - done!
5 - done!
6 - done!
P - Pretty in Pink

Integrity
1 - done!
2 - done!
3 - done!
4 - done!
5 - done!
6 - done!
P - ASB

Working on:

• Individual Worth 3 - Notice and acknowledge worthwhile qualities (2 weeks)
• Good Works 1 - Record and acknowledge quiet acts of service (2 weeks)

Daughter of God

"You cannot imagine the gifts and talents each of you has. All women have appealing features. I do not refer to model-type appeal, but rather that which comes from your personality, your attitude, and your expressions. I urge you to enhance the natural, God-given, feminine gifts with which you have been so richly blessed. None of you should be so content that you cease to care about how you look or act. In his day, President Brigham Young encouraged women to get an education. This is still good counsel, but I hasten to add: in all your getting, do not lose your sweet femininity.
You sisters do not know the full extent of your influence. You sisters enrich all of humanity. All human life begins with you. Each woman brings her own separate, unique strengths to the family and the Church. Being a daughter of God means that if you seek it, you can find your true identity. You will know who you are. This will make you free—not free from restraints, but free from doubts, anxieties, or peer pressure. You will not need to worry, “Do I look all right?” “Do I sound OK?” “What do people think of me?” A conviction that you are a daughter of God gives you a feeling of comfort in your self-worth. It means that you can find strength in the balm of Christ. It will help you meet the heartaches and challenges with faith and serenity.
I wonder if you sisters can fully appreciate the innate gifts, blessings, and endowments you have simply because you are daughters of God. It is a mistake for women to think that life begins only with marriage. A woman can and must have an identity and feel useful, valued, and needed whether she is single or married. She must feel that she can do something for someone else that no one else ever born can do." - President Faust.

Not worrying about what people think of me didn't come easily. It came after my group of friends didn't want to be friends with me anymore. It came after my supposed friends got together and made a plan to make my life "a living hell." It came after my supposed friends went around telling people that I didn't even know, things about me that were far from true. It came when I had nothing else to do, but not care. Because caring would've eaten me alive, and I never would've made it through the last two years of high school.


So please don't assume things about me. Just know that I do the things I do, and I don't do the things I don't do for a reason. I don't think that I'm better than you, but that doesn't mean that I think you're better than me. We're different, that's how we're supposed to be.

Quote of the Day!

So lately people have been saying the funniest/most retarded things! So I decided that I needed to start a quote of the day!

July 1st - "I want more than one relationship" - Kristi trying to tell me to right the plural of relationship in a text.

July 2nd - I can't remember back that far!

July 3rd -

July 4th -

July 5th - ok so I had a few for this day!
"Well I'm catholic and I drink like a fish so..." - The cop at the school after we told him we were a good group of Christian kids and hadn't been drinking.
"How old are you?" "24" "You're 24 and you're playing hide-and-seek?" - The cop and someone else there!
"You missed it, Kristi just got yoinked!" "You got yoinked?" "Yeah, by the hose!" - Ryan and Sean after Kristi got tripped by the hose!

July 6th - "Mormon kids just grow up slower than regular kids." - Kristi

July 7th - "Will you...I need it for tomorrow...My feet hurt..." - Kristi trying to ask me to do something...it took me a few minutes to try and figure out what she wanted!

July 8th - "You can do it without screwing things." - Shannon trying to tell me how to open a manicure set case!

July 9th - People were pretty normal today...sad! :(

July 10th - So not really a quote but a story I heard on the radio!!! So some kids went around one night and stole over 6 dozen manhole covers! And then a 12 yr old girl was walking down the street and fell into an open manhole! haha

July 11th - "So now my grandma's like the hickey police!" - Joe

July 12th - "What side of the road is the stop sign on?" - Ashley trying to ask for directions.

July 16th - So I've missed a few days! This quote isn't funny, but it's really good! And it isn't from today, I think it's from Fast Sunday, but I just saw it on Meagan's facebook and remembered how much I like it. "Just because life is hard, doesn't mean it's bad." - Rachelle Warby

"Look a flying star!" - Joe Edmonds. There's another one about popcorn but I don't remember it right now! :(

Happy 4th of July

Happy 4th of July! I really think that the 4th of July is a cool thing. Not only does it remind me, for obvious reasons, of our freedom, but it also reminds me of Joseph Smith and the organization of the church. Without the 4th of July, and the gaining of our independence, the gospel wouldn't have been restored in its fullness. The freedoms that came along with our Independence, allowed the church to be organized. I guess it's kind of a reminder to me that God has a plan and a purpose for everything. He knows what to do and when to do it. He doesn't let it happen before it's supposed to, no matter how bad you want it to. Lately I've been able to look at situations where I really wanted to be able to do something, but for one reason or another I couldn't and trust that I wasn't supposed to for a reason. Sometimes I have to talk myself into believing that I wasn't supposed to do it, and other times it's more of a subconscious feeling and it takes me a while to figure out that that's what it is.

Strawberry Festival was fun!

Strawberry Festival was an absolute blast!! It was more fun than I had hoped it would be. Carl initiated me and my court into the Marysville Order of the Flying Pigs at the formal dinner! I now have the Marysville flying pig pin and the power to say "Don't look now, but here they come!" when someone tells me, "when pigs fly!" Haha only Carl! I got to pin the Daffodil court with their order of the flying pig pins too. Anyways! The parade was amazing! The strawberry shortcake eating contest was fun, no we didn't win, Port Orchard did but I wasn't even trying! I don't like shortacke, so I just ate the strawberries and tried to get as messy as possible to get some good pictures! Don't go on the carnival rides right after the shortcake eating contest...bad idea! Overall the week was a success and very fun!

Yesterday I went out to dinner with my family and my aunt before me and Kristi went to FHE. Apparently I'm oblivious to the fact that people are talking to me and not my sister...oops! :S haha oh well! The FHE lesson was really good! We didn't It was a fun night though.

Nothing too exciting has happened lately, I'm just sitting around waiting to go to work, and avoiding cleaning my room - I think my mom is about to kill me because of that :) haha it's not THAT messy...just a little!

Not quite the registration I had hoped for!

Registering was a nightmare! It kept telling me that I couldn't register because I hadn't paid the registration fee that I paid in April! So I paid it again, and again, and again but it told me the transaction didn't go through because I had already paid it! I finally gave up and went to McDonalds to eat away my emotional frustrations! Haha. We called the school this morning and it was a glitch in their system. So I registered but by then all the classes that I had planned on taking were gone! Everything worked out pretty well though! I'm taking all fundamental classes except for a music class, and a psychology class in place of the writing class since there were NONE left!! But I'm excited for the psychology class since that's what I'm planning on going into, well that and music. I want to do music therapy in an eating disorder clinic. And I'm super excited for my music class, it's a group vocal lesson class. In case you didn't know, singing is the number one love of my life!!

I went to institute tonight for the first time. It was pretty good! We talked about Ezekiel and Armageddon. It was interesting. I'm pretty sure I'll go back again!

The Strawberry Festival is already here! It's crazy, it seemed like it was so far away and now it's finally here! Tomorrow is the talent show, I kinda wish I was in it again. Haha I just like to be up in front of people! I'm most excited for the dinner and the parade! It'll be more fun to wave to people I know than random strangers!

Well I'm trying to watch Poseidon, it's starting out a little cheesy...we'll see how it goes!

College

So I'm waiting to register for classes in less than an hour! I'm kind of nervous... not for registering but for college itself! I like my life to be planned out for me!! Not every minute of it, but the general plan! I'm way to indecisive to be done with that stage of my life. Seriously, it took me half of the lunch period to decide what I wanted to eat that day! Ah! I think I'm just going to sign up for the fundamental classes and a music class....I need something fun in there!

I'm really excited to go though! I know that I'm supposed to go to Idaho (as much as I didn't want to) and I'm excited to go and find out why. But I swear if it's because of a guy, I'll kill myself!! All seriousness, I'm not getting married that soon! I'd die!

I want to go to Target

I want to go to Target! They have nice towels on sale for $4 but my sister won't stop blogging so we can leave. Ah! Older sisters! So I wrote a song for her. Her blog is laughing through life. It's to the tune of Dancing Through life to Wicked!!



Laughing through life

At all of the boys

Laughing at all the stupid things they do.

Life is funner, when they're dumber

When you can laugh, at all that they do.



Laughing at boys

No need to hide it

Cause all the girls are laughing too

Nothing matters, oh knowing nothing matters

When there are boys to be laughing at!